hello world, and welcome to a new era of me. it's been a long time coming, separating myself from social media, focusing on friends, family, and local community, but we've finally reached there. and through this, finally have reached me creating my own corner of the internet. my website, and occompanying blog.

to just explain as to why I made such a change, in the most simple of explanations, I'm tired of the culture that surrounds social media! within my time using it, no matter how I curate my feed, no matter how new the platform is or how hard I try and avoid these cultures, it leaks in. the doom scrolling and addiction to my screen. the fear that if I don't engage, I may be part of the problem. that I must consume it all. I am flooded with fearmongering, reminders of tradgedies and horrific world events, people fighting with others trying to be the loudest in what they call "debates", and worse.

so FUCK that !!! I'm moving away from the phone. I'm limiting my internet usage. I'm curating the communities I interact with. I deserve to be happy god damn it !!! I've moved away from games on my phone, so I bought a Gameboy Advance and modded an old gen 1 2DS for entertainment. no more looking at bluesky and discord blankly on the bus. no more youtube during break.


I'm allowing myself to be in the moment again.

A photo taken of a Gameboy Advance SP playing the game Mother 3. The screen displays a group of characters around a gravestone, a textbox by a character named Alec saying sorry. A photo taken of a first generation red shell Nindendo 2DS. The background is modded, displaying a screen from the game In Stars And Time.

I also plan on getting an iPod 6th gen in the future. the end goal is to make the phone what it was made to be again. for calls, emails and texting. weather, clock, calculator and gps functionality are a bonus feature. it would be nice to detach like that, have the ability to put things down without the worry of being sucked in. testing has shown that I'm capable of it like this too, so I know I'm ready. I'm excited. I have a foot in the door to a job soon too. maybe work can help take my mind off things even further. until then, I'll keep working at bettering myself. I got long ways to go, but at least I got some good people on my side ready to help.

kevin~ (aka 💜birbohex💜)

a selfie of a person standing next to an iced over lake, the sun making the sky a bright white, reflecting off of the ice. there are tracks across the ice as well.